What am I doing wrong. I just want to know what other people are doing that I am not doing. How do people gain and sustain a relationship. Why am I not in a relationship, am I just not trying hard enough; am I the problem. I see other people around me without a care in the world getting with and having a healthy relationship with another either with another man or a woman. I have been trying but maybe its just that no one could give a single care in the world for an actual shit stain in the world cause I just feel ignored or people could care less if I was in the same environment as them.
My IRL friend group that I have had since my middle school years is starting to depart, well seemingly without me, since everyone else has made a separate group chat with themselves. I think I'm honestly done for, I think there is no substantial hope in the world left for me. That train has left the station long ago and I'm probably now just noticing.
I don't want this to be the end, but I don't want to continue living if it is.
Today will probably be my final day, thank you.
TomFulp
Don't let this be the end, try think of each day as a new beginning. An opportunity to meet new people, make new friends, work on self improvement, etc. If you've been dwelling on negative topics (like doomscrolling on Twitter/X), it's a good time to find the positive things that interest you and try to focus on those instead.
Looking over your Twitter activity, are you reading stuff that's making you stressed over topics like immigration? Could it be possible you've been complaining about immigrants in your friend group and they don't want to hang out with someone who complains about immigrants? A lot of friend groups break apart over divisive political topics, so it's a good time to explore the sort things you've been saying and sharing. Are you complaining about things that are actually important to you or are you letting the algorithm make you mad / worried about stuff? It's designed to make you upset, to farm engagement.
I don't know much about you so I don't know what exact advice to give but you write well and that already makes you more interesting than a lot of people, for what it's worth.